I can already tell. It’s 6:30 in the morning and I can already feel it. I’m more introverted and will probably be moody today. Janalou calls me “quiet” when I’m like this.
You see, the first water I hit today was in the shower, not the 25-meter pool. My first reach was for the soap instead of the suggestion of a DAM (Dallas Aquatic Masters) coach to lengthen my stroke.
I skipped my workouts this morning.
Oh, the alarm went off just fine. And so did my wife’s alarm. In fact, I was awake before it went off and placed my hand on the button so I could turn it off the moment it beeped. Yup, this was premeditated defiance.
Today my thoughts will rumble around inside my head like a pebble rolling down stream under the rushing water, knocking off the rough edges before it comes to rest. If history tells me anything, it will be a day I will re-evaluate where I am and what I am doing, mentally, physically, emotionally, professionally, recreationally, and athletically.
All of this and I have an interview at 5 o’clock. Geez! And tomorrow is Janalou’s birthday.
I should have worked out this morning, that’s all there is to it. I should have, …but I didn’t. I could have, …but I didn’t. It was a conscious, premeditated decision NOT to have endorphins coursing through my veins today, making me a dogmatic machine of just doing things; swimming, biking, running, clients, classes, phone calls, and writing without thought. Well, there is thought, of course, but no introspective thought…the “why.”
Today will probably be a good day to re-establish, re-affirm my “whys.” Once I know my whys, well, I’m much more motivated, much more focused. It is the first question I ask my clients who want to train or do a race: why? The answer is not as important to me as it is to them. I do listen when they answer, but I also watch them when they answer to see if they are sincere. I have a few clients who tire of me asking that question. I also feel everything we do should have a reason. At no time should a person be paying another to coach or guide without knowing why the coach or guide is asking for a particular workout, or exercise. I will sometimes prompt my clients. “Do you know WHY we’re doing this workout?” The older clients roll their eyes. “Why?” they’ll sigh with as much enthusiasm as a 15 year old in a lecture class on logarithms. I explain.
But they’ll be no one to explain my whys to me, today. I will be alone to my thoughts as I go about the day’s required work. I might be quiet to some, moody to others.
Let’s hope I work out tomorrow morning.